ISH.
sometimes, i wish i were a different person.
in many ways.
what if i wasn't how i was?
my life might be better on the surface, but how would i spiritually suffer?
but then again, it sure beats psychological suffering.
okay, i just need to remind this to myself.
its okay if you guys don't get it, but somehow i need to post it here.
ahem, don't freak out.
sigh.
right.
i'd rather go drown myself in a mindless search of new restaurants in rc.
here we go.
i make my own decisions. and God helps me make my decisions.
i have made more than a few promises to God i find very hard to keep.
i am keeping them, so far, and it has only brought me nowhere.
maybe i'm being self-righteous and overly diplomatic, i mean, a sixteen year old is bound to make mistakes right?
can i knowingly do things i know which are wrong, and then assume that i will come to my senses (when i'm already fully conscious and well, sane) and ask for forgiveness and everything will be wiped clean?
i'm not sure if it works that way.
but its so unfair!
why do others get to do whatever they blissfully unaware of the consequences, and therefore, not allowed to be held responsible?
HUH?
with all honesty, if i didn't make those decisions to God, i would have lied to my parents alot, would be dead broke, would have a pathetic (but hot) boyfriend and so on....
so why is it a bad thing?
oh this is so conflicting.
its okay. i've just gone mad abit.
yeah just went climbing again, let the pounds melt away!
i'm kidding, i don't climb to lose weight.
ahem, i dont have to :p
and ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
fantasy football!
i tell you ah, just cause of that STUPID gameweek 2 i'll be suffering.
ISH.
ISH.
ISH.
i wish i could simply enjoy the fact that arsenal won.
thats all okay?
i feel like the room is spinning, abit dizzy now, i hope i don't fall of the chair
haha i feel really really dizzy now
lazy to post a pic.
sleepy, but stubborn, i dowan to sleep.
missing my yeh yeh again.
bye!
enjoy the hols!
sometimes, i wish i were a different person.
in many ways.
what if i wasn't how i was?
my life might be better on the surface, but how would i spiritually suffer?
but then again, it sure beats psychological suffering.
okay, i just need to remind this to myself.
its okay if you guys don't get it, but somehow i need to post it here.
ahem, don't freak out.
sigh.
right.
i'd rather go drown myself in a mindless search of new restaurants in rc.
here we go.
i make my own decisions. and God helps me make my decisions.
i have made more than a few promises to God i find very hard to keep.
i am keeping them, so far, and it has only brought me nowhere.
maybe i'm being self-righteous and overly diplomatic, i mean, a sixteen year old is bound to make mistakes right?
can i knowingly do things i know which are wrong, and then assume that i will come to my senses (when i'm already fully conscious and well, sane) and ask for forgiveness and everything will be wiped clean?
i'm not sure if it works that way.
but its so unfair!
why do others get to do whatever they blissfully unaware of the consequences, and therefore, not allowed to be held responsible?
HUH?
with all honesty, if i didn't make those decisions to God, i would have lied to my parents alot, would be dead broke, would have a pathetic (but hot) boyfriend and so on....
so why is it a bad thing?
oh this is so conflicting.
its okay. i've just gone mad abit.
yeah just went climbing again, let the pounds melt away!
i'm kidding, i don't climb to lose weight.
ahem, i dont have to :p
and ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
fantasy football!
i tell you ah, just cause of that STUPID gameweek 2 i'll be suffering.
ISH.
ISH.
ISH.
i wish i could simply enjoy the fact that arsenal won.
thats all okay?
i feel like the room is spinning, abit dizzy now, i hope i don't fall of the chair
haha i feel really really dizzy now
lazy to post a pic.
sleepy, but stubborn, i dowan to sleep.
missing my yeh yeh again.
bye!
enjoy the hols!
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