i don't feel like i'm being picky. it's illogical to think that anyone in any (serious) relationship would pick someone they wouldn't deem suitable right. the opposite of picky is to be openly accepting. how polygamous.
relationships, romantic or not, are such a chore and so many feelings have to be considered. i already have a tough time trying to handle mine then i also have to handle yours. goodness.
overall i'm very tired of over-analyzing my thoughts and (lack of) feelings. i think i will be okay being celibate.