i cant explain this feeling, i think about it everyday...and its not love..

someone makes Laura feel insignificant and useless.
someone makes Laura wish she were more...just more in every way.
someone makes Laura tired and indifferent.
someone makes Laura a'lil bit narcissistic.
someone makes Laura bitter and resentful.
someone makes Laura angry.
Conclusion: Therefore, Laura is sad.

i have realized i get threatened veryvery easily.
like when im put in a certain position which ISN'T the HIGHEST position..
i tend to recoil/refrain from being my usual outspoken hyperactive smileysmiley self...
and then i become boring and forgettable..
right.
so...i hate it... wish i could just forget about everyones status and be myself no matter what.
but my brain just cant manage to function like that.
bugger.