the nitty gritty.

ahem.

that day, i just so happened to be lucky enough to be able to watch a live game of ice hockey at pyramid. i even surprised myself at how much i enjoyed watching it.

besides the fact that they were all not local, and very sexy, i was deeply drawn to it and my dad even left me for awhile to go look at some stuff while i gaped liked a suffocating fish down at the skating rink.

there's something extremely captivating about group sports (now, i say group sports because i couldn't care less about tennis, squash, badminton, ping pong, or anything that has less than 4 people per team kind of sports, OR cricket and baseball. yech.) and extremely entertaining even though i don't follow consistently on it.

i didn't really like sports or realize that i liked it before...i was 14 or 15 but then again, i don't really know anything much about myself before that age. it is a blur in my head D:

so i thought the only reason i liked sports was because i like football and even though some sports are completely different, they had some sort of correlation. but then, i don't think so anymore.

it's not that i like sports because i like football, it's more of i like football because i like sports! :) get it?

woahhh i can totally smell my sister's shampoo from here o.o

i've always been sorry that i can't actually play these sports. i can't play basketball, football, volleyball, hockey, netball, rugby, etc.
i can't play MOSTLY because i'm a girl. and opportunities to play don't come often. or at all o.o

and i probably can't play because i don't really have the talent to. and even if i had it, i wouldn't know, or can't sharpen it, because i can't play regularly. and i can't play regularly because... don't make me repeat myself.

i should have been born a guy. really. i should.

and besides those sports, i also feel really sad about not being able to do well in athletics. running or jumping or anything. i joined. yeah. but heck, that was nothing. and i think it brought more discouragement than anything else.

so, i am ridiculously inferior because i have this intense attraction to sports and athletics but yet the only participation i can do is it watch.

:(

and saturday futsal? everybody busy. including me la. but still. >:(