Is it time stopped or what, we're in an endless cycle of disappointment and more disappointment. i doubt there's any hope or anticipation, just a sense of waiting it out.
and of course the tons and tons of bad news daily on every single platform
i'm here because i wanted to tweet about how hungry i am but everyone was posting serious stuff all the time i feel like i cant post nonsense anymore
i mean its not i care less about other things or i think people will just think that because of my dumb tweets, and twitter is my safe space of all places, but i guess it really just isnt the time and place
i just, dont want to tweet even more about everything, other than when im ranting
in the end, my circle of influence is private and so small, and i guess everyone in my circle is already woke anyway, what more can i add to impact anyone here
but of course no judge for people who want to complain about it, there's only so much we can hold in during this time
tired of the numbers and stories and looking for any sign of hope in improvement from the vaccinations, hope that the government does something competent for once, hoping and praying everyday my friends and family are safe, trying not to let the sense of doom about our future, the country overwhelm
and legit we're just going through the motions day by day, what are we even looking forward to, i'm sure if i had the choice i would take the option to fast forward auto play the next month at least
am i even progressing as a human, just feel like i'm maintaining or containing problems, but what is actually going well ah really
ok legit after typing that i was compelled to try and write out some small achievements lel
it took me long to think
1. some slight improvements in fitness? slightly more regular in running and home workouts SLIGHTLY like i can feel the strength and stamina improve, but eating habits still not great because food helps me cope but yeaaaa legit i was gaining weight throughout and then i have this weird mild but persistent knee injury? but hyeah i have big goals to lose like maybe 5kgs in 6 months? 1 year? who knows whats really achievable here im just waiting till i can have badminton in my life again
2. i play a liiil bit more guitar like i've added a few more chords to my repertoire and less awkward with my transitions its still real bad overall haha but its a nice outlet for playing and singing a bit and idk its a skill right, im quite motivated to keep upping my effort on this
3. i cut my hair, i cut ye shengs hair, i learn from youtube, i got improve
4. how about at work? hmm some change in portfolio and more tasks and responsibilities, i am cry everyday but overall it could be worse is that the healthy way to look at it? sometimes we're all just a lil weak and dramatic i just need some things to be a lil bit more normal and MCO makes things harder huhu
5. we've been talking to contractors about the house renovations, its a real learning process about...renovations and architecture and interior design, which i love i do just sometimes its a bummer about how much things cost. but at least there's movement in this? nothings determined or committed yet, and sometimes the uncertainties or things that are really out of our league of understanding is frustrating, and communication wise its not always smooth - but hey now's the best time to do it right so yea
6. did i achieve anything else? ermmmm i think i improved my pumpkin gnocchi recipe after the billionth time - so i just freeze the dough and use it when i need to.
a fun thing i like to think about to help myself is when i have my own house is finally controlling my own kitchen and fridge, cos right now there's no space for me to put anything anywhere
ice cream, frozen gnocchi dough, frozen cookie dough - erm yea that's the extent of it for now haha
okay i feel like maybe 1% better
take care everyone :(
