Eeet eez mid May already, half the year has almost passed and it still feels like Q1 somehow. Where did the time go, has it just been a waiting game of checking numbers and vaccine news only for it to end up here, 6k cases today, with 2k+ alone in Selangor.
So we have only regressed.
I'm also tired of thinking and worrying about it, its a constant cycle of worrying things will never be the same and missing out on so many things. to think that maybe 2 years in limbo is a possibility... wow
SO i'm here again to just vent my frustrations.
again sien i have to do the usual disclaimers that i understand covid affects to many people at much more significant and substantial levels, that my complaints here will undoubtedly sound very shallow BUT they are valid to me and i'm not trying to undermine those concerns
these are just the thoughts swimming in my head because yea humans are selfish ah and here are all the things i feel like im sad to missing out on
and i'm just sad for everyone missing out in the respective times of their lives
imagine missing out kindergarten or primary school, the formative years that help build your education, people skills, understanding of the world! but only being able to do that from your own house, with your own family, and trying to learn through a screen
imagine missing out high school, the formative years to help build your self-identity, life-long friendships, navigating teenage life, having fun, especially those in their final years
same goes for uni, though i'm slightly less attached to uni haha
imagine starting your working life barely having met any of your own colleagues in person, with no other activities or events to break your daily routine, and only having to hear 'oh but because of mco, ....'
so let me share all the things i'm sadly missing out on
1. I miss my friends the most, and all the fun times i'm supposed to be having! my gathering and parties and holidays, and now i'd just happily take lunches and dinners and car rides but NO i get barely anything
ok there are some and i hold those very dear to me, that's all i've had but i cant help longing for those that i wished could have happened
2. I miss all the big social events, family gatherings, extended family gatherings, soo many weddings and fancy corporate dinners. the happy thought of squishing 10 people in one table! sharing food! nice food too
3. I miss my office gym, and being able to workout at such convenience. i hate having to think about working out at home, or looking at this rainy weather. i've had some badminton on and off but it would have also been nice to have it regularly again
4. I miss travelling, i miss being on a plane, feeling lost, preparing for trips and packing? We had one awesome KL airbnb 3 days 2 nights somewhere in the middle when the cases were slightly lower, and it was amazing. need more
5. can't wait to attend a concert after this. tbh i dont really miss cinemas
after this my list will be work related.
6. i miss my colleagues, the camaraderie and teamwork, having everyone around and easily discussing something by just standing up and shouting it out, or heck even airing it out in a physical meeting. i miss sharing food with everyone and swapping work stories
7. i miss office events and i hate how it spoils the experience for my kids, i'm lazy to elaborate further about my job but i'm just sad that they only get this measly virtual experience.
8. i'm just sad that this does affect my work, and its something completely out of my control. their two years experience is just going to end with crumbs and i think they would have felt like its a waste of time too.
9. my work revolves so much around people and engagement and i wish there was so much more i could do but i can only keep a distance or plan these stupid virtual things that feel useless
soooooo let's end on some positive notes
1. i save a lot of money no doubt
2. glad that WFH will be an option in the future forever i hope, just not everyday
3. is there any other good thing happening, i'm lost
phew ok so that's all i can release for now
just hope things will get better, can't keep my life on hold forever
