committed?

yello :)

i didn't get the lowest in tuition today, YAY :)

i had some freak gastric attack from nowhere today, and its not like i don't eat. and i have a dry sore throat. so all these things are telling me i don't eat enough and i don't drink [water!] enough, but i so am, so i think my body is just throwing a fuss.

yah. so last monday i went into class and all the guys at the back were like aww :( because arsenal lost. sigh. and LOL it could happen again this monday, but the thing abt football is you learn how to let go and go on :)

did not go jogging or training this whole week. sigh. and i finished alot of homework this week because of that.

i have also finished watching all 13 episodes of glee sigh, i don't know if season two also got yet or not.

somehow i had alot of homework to do on wednesday, but none to do by thursday.

i distinctly remember actually watching two episodes of glee on that day itself, and after it was done i was like WOAH so much hw ah? and i kept yelling at my books because yes, inanimate objects can be stupid and frustrating.

i needed a break, so i walked out to meet zack outside school. we barely made it past school then it started to rain, so he walked me back lol. and somehow, that helped alot, it made me continue doing homework :)

so i could go to the ng's place.

on thursday was nick's birthday :) yes he is 16 now! in the prime of his youth! and still young! lol. one of my oldest and best friends. nice to see you grow up so well nick :)

yeah, we went to kemuning to surprise him. yeah on a school night! first time weh :)

but we got lost and ended up in some ulu part of klang instead. reached there an hour late. i really thank God we're okay, didn't kena arrested LOL, or didn't end up in somewhere worse, or no petrol, and that we kept getting so many calls cause everyone worried about us. yeah.

came home at 12 -_- and i woke up this morning with like sore throat and stomach ache lah. yeesh.

today didn't do much at school either, talk alot loh.

and tmr is sports day. i think i am running lah. i dunno -_-?

i always ask myself, why do i want to be in the olahraga. the training hours are long and tiring, i'm not even that fast or have that much stamina, and i am scared to death of competing at mssd because of last year.

if i had any talent, and knew i could win something, then it'd be okay. but since i don't, i feel like i'm being more idealistic than realistic. maybe i just want the title, because it sounds cool :) and the training makes you more fit, and you feel healthier and you get full koko marks :D. i don't know. but it is very tiring, and i do know that my studies will suffer abit for the march test.

but if there's one reason i know why i'm still there, it's because i love running :) the feeling of running without feeling like you wanna faint/throw up/die is amazing :) and thats what it is, passion :) if you love something and you are willing to work hard for it, why won't you succeed in it? and i have God on my side. i can deal with disappointment.

haha. i think about this alot. sigh. and feel like just quitting all the time, or wishing i could turn back time and start training earlier. whatever.

and i don't find anybody sharing this passion with me either. i don't know. i never asked. but they don't seem like they do. whatever.

i'm no kantha :)

right. see you guys?