i ain't with it.

yeah, so i'm quite upset with this guy.
it's really silly, so i'm just gonna write it up and then let it go.

i have a very unhealthy way of dealing with the crushes i have on guys.
not that i have had many guys to like since i was...16. nice guys are going extinct.

well, i think i'm quite a realistic person. so when i do get crazy and stalkerish about someone it's definitely something short term and with no basis wan. unless of course the guy show's some sort of interest himself.

well. this new guy annoyed the heck out of me because of his utter lack of response. so annoying.
not used to it at all. i know i'm bragging here, but at least the guys before this had shown some sort interest right.

not this guy. no. so sickening. all he can do is show his stupid lopsided smile at me.

so i'm upset. but i guess for a short while only lah.

see, this is why i don't want a boyfriend. now. cause i'm crazy and i know it.

arsenal is coming to malaysia btw. i'm kinda uber happy.

adding on, in general, sometimes guys are real dumbos.

change is good.

yes, i've added pages.

they seemed silly and complicated to create at first but then you know, i am gifted technologically so yeah i figured it out :)

anyway.

i've put them in to make blogging less of a hassle for me.

cause i want to write down memories as vividly as possible and what i DON'T want to do is to write as if i'm desperate for your attention and acknowledgement.

check out the introduction. it'll help ALOT.

as we go on, we remember.

sigh. i know i sound so silly and repetitive, but I really miss my classmates :(

see. sometimes when it's you know, that time of the month, i get realllllyy emo. for no reason. it's crazy. and easily annoyed. sometimes it's not so bad, but like maybe once in three or four months, it culminates and culminates until i get frustrated with everything.

so the latest one was, frustrated with failing my driving, frustrated with form 6, frustrated with my blog, frustrated with arsenal and frustrated that i cannot see my classmates even though i miss them.

there's nothing i can actually do about driving, i have to pass eventually.
and i suppose i can get used to form 6. i don't and never did have a good mood on any early morning except saturdays, and there's no noobs to cheer me up, so i think i'm quite grumpy and unsociable in seafield.

and yeah, i privated my blog. cause i was annoyed with it. yes, an inanimate website that didn't do anything wrong, made me angry.

nothing i can do about arsenal, but to watch the last game of the season without throwing a remote at the tv. and then hope for the best for next season.

and, my classmates. i realize now how much they affect me and how school was alot better with them around.
the fact that we were, trying not to sound cliched here, a sort of family.

i never appreciated until now the amount of acceptance and belonging that comes from being in such a group of friends. everybody's equal yet everyone has their own special qualities and flaws.

i can be annoyed and grumpy all i want and yet they understand. i could be lame and messy and noisy and i bet (hope) they liked that about me.

oh you stupid internet >:( !

okay.

and then if i'm angry with one of them i can go to another. there was never really any backstabbing or fights and when there was it was because we knew that we loved each other enough to make up and say sorry.

okeh. i know i'm being ridiculous and i promise this is my last wimpy post about them.

and i am angry at them because we don't make the effort to go out. hmph.

less than three!

honesty is such a lonely word.

As you know, weekdays are again, pretty uneventful. blissfully happy, but sometimes kinda lonely because you're all busy. :(

on friday i went to get my sakae sushi pay, i don't know why, but still feel incredibly pai seh to go back there. D:
my manager gave me my cheque and the amount nearly scared me to death, but then he showed me another slip. i am to get 50 bucks one month later, and there's 40 bucks in my non-existent epf account. say whut.

and everyone there, all the staff were just standing around staring at me D: no more jye and shahril lah of course
:( did i mention that i miss them? abiiiittt lah. hehe.

so gotta tell about my weekend, they're so cram packed. osm, compared to stupid weekdays.

well i got to drive to church on friday night, and saturday morning. the saturday morning one i actually had to park, and i was slow. and then off engine i turned the key right instead of left and the car practically farted in my face, and just so ngam kyle got out of his car and laughed at me :(

after church was breakfast at melur with kyle, julian, joel, adrian, terence and i can't remember who else.
and then back home, took a 20 minute power nap, because the weather was osm! then gid fetched me back to church for practice. till about 10.45. then somehow there was food upstairs for us :)

then jie, mummy and i went for mum's ex-colleague's garage sale. she's extremely pretty and fashionable btw :)

bought a cheap, and very nice, dress :)

then went home again, another 20 minute power nap. was supposed to go to snogurt with jamie, steph and mae, but there was a jam and i had practice so i told them to go ahead without me. i asked them to tapau bubble tea for me instead :)

went to church for worship practice. worship was good that day.

and omg :D johanna's back! waha! i miss her so so so much and she didn't tell us she was coming back so i was like omgzh the whole time. johanna and julian back at the same time? i love you easter holidays! (in aussie)

after church went for dinner with my family :) my very late spm results celebratory dinner.
and ironically enough i really wanted to go to sakae sushi :) but not the one in parade my gawd but the one in pyramid :)

AND.
sunday.

church. after church mae and i asked daniel wong to drive me home real fast to get some clothes. then had auditions. and they said i looked super power :D and then mae and all did their dance which was osm :) so proud.

then a few of us hung around waiting for joel to come back from ojt.

then joel, mae and i went to kota damansara for chilli pan mee (-_-) cause joe was around there. then adrian fetched jeremy, clement and sean while joe went to fetch julian. ish. by the time they all got there joel, mae and i already finished eating D: we left. at 4. lexus doh :D

we went to the kelana jaya lrt station. and the train reached kinda fast :) the 8 of us (minus jeremy) even got to sit cause it was kinda empty. (unlike when joe and i used the ktm to go to mid valley it was so packed can die) i guess we were all kinda tired but this sean and adrian still so energetic. i would have slept, but they were noisy lah.

and mai gawd, everytime when i'm with them sure there's this moment where they do something silly and noisy and EVERYONE stares and it's super funny, but embarassing. same thing on the lrt, ac, face to face, snowflake....

then klcc for the pcfair. whatever lah, lots and lots of people and lot's of walking. and we kept losing each other. i tell if joe don't follow me i confirm lost adi. i'm useless like that. we got free balloons! :D haha! :D

and then by the time we came out it was almost 7. and then lrt back also not many people. also got chance to sit. and also got chance for them to do sampat stuff.

and then adrian, clement and sean left. we sent mae back to dj, and then we went back to joel's house for awhile cause that dungu joseph rajasingam left his phone there. and the van was there anyway.

why didn't we have dinner i still don't know, but i think because it was late.

then joe and i went back to subang. i tell you, sitting in the church van is osm :) i can see everything! :D

then i reached home at 9. ate some spagatta nadles for dinnah :D and a good shower. by that time i was so tired already.

and surprisingly mummeh let me go out again at 10.30 to watch arsenal vs liverpool. haha. kyle fetched me. joe kata nak datang, tapi tertidur. nemai lah, he was also super tired.

then we went to rock cafe. stupid place. didn't turn on their big screen, and didn't turn on most of the fans there. so potong you know.

gid, julian and joel came also.

was generally a boring game. then arsenal's penalty. omaigwd julian and i were so happy when van persie took it cause we both captained him. then stupid noobs conceded the stupid penalty. and then they all laughed in my face :( i emo sikit ah. then kyle sent me back at 1.20 and i slept straight away, cause man was i exhausted.

that's my weekend. it was fun.

that's all kthxbai :)

weekends.

harrow! :)

just need to tell you about my weekend. since i am still free, and yes, STOP ASKING ME! i'll start my studies again in JUNE okay shut up already.
and i might or might not get a job.

i'm not obliged to do anything, i'm sorry if you are, or if you feel that you are, by your friends, parents, or whatever, but me? i'm okay with this. :)

anyway. it was a lonnnnggg weekend.

friday night after church, the girls and i had a sleepover at mae's house. jamie and jess drove. but first we went to melur for supper. then we went back. the more bimbotic side of us came out and we had some nail polish party. :) jess and mae also have a lot of nail polish btw :) i think jess has almost 30, and mae has 30 plus. i have 30 plus too! :)

and then we played taboo. and skyped with joel and julian han and nick and su-lyn! :D haha.
yeah, julian is back! for a few weeks too :D i miss him lah. and he's taller than me already.

then we watched on junior masterchef on the big screen :D i think one by one they fell asleep except me and jess. then we watched how i met your mother. then itu dungu clarissa complain, so we turned it off and jess and i talked lor.

and then we slept. at 4. -_- then jess was talking in her sleep and woke me up. at 6? and faya's alarm rang for so long. and then i couldn't sleep adi. so i stared at mae who was hehesnoringhehe. till about 7.30? then i slept again and woke up at 10.30.

then we made pancakes! and pizza!
then we went to snogurt, which is kinda osm and cheaper than tutti frutti anyway :)

then church. and then practice. and then we went to ac. and then gid and i rushed home cause my parents and  they're cell were having a durian party. haha. then i realized that there was still alot of durian left so i called terence, faya, mae and joe to come too. haha.

durian, football, and good friends? best combo ever :) i should be guy :(
haha.

family friends are the best. nick and steph and melissa and they're parents :)

and then i had to mop even though i was so exhausted. and still had to wash my hair cause i smelled like durian. i slept at 2. so. so. tired.

then. sunday. after church, we went to nirwana at usj 9. i think about almost 30-40 of us. first time sitting in lawrence's car which is weird cause it's been how long...?? haha.

then sotb. then i drove joe's car again and there was this weird market there? and i had to make this really tight u-turn so i freaked out. i drove again near usj 3a there. and everywhere and in the church parking lot for fun. and i was at this traffic light where i panicked and forgot to release the clutch and was stepping on the accelerator and was screaming MOVEEEEE??!! so dungu right. my gear changing and breaking better adi though :)

exam on the 25th! :)

fatty ho just passed today btw. if she can do it, so can i :)

went to buy my phone, the samsung galaxy ace. it's really new. and not cheap.
i know most of you tech-illiterate simply assume it's not a good phone cause you haven't heard about it. whatever lah kay. sorry lah i can't afford an iphone (not that i want it lah, hehe) and whatever expensive htc.
i can waste my time telling you a thousand tech facts, but i won't.
it's not in stock. hopefully next week :)

see. i should be a guy.

i have bacon downstairs! :D
bai :)

and, btw. i is going for justin bieber's concert yo! :) for free too. arrr :D