Back door

It is October and honestly, is 2020 even real

How long will be looking at the face of uncertainty

The things that we have missed for what we thought was just temporary might be much longer out of reach again

There is no more normal

Just things like travelling, concerts, parties, weddings, cinemas like wow

And somethings when you just take a breath and look at things and realize, WOW, a lot of people are really losing their income and livelihood

And here now just being afraid of testing positive 

and also partially afraid of being irreversibly addicted to my devices

But i'm here again to recount my blessings and..uh...name them, um, one by one...

I am ever thankful for:

- the people who are always a source of joy, care, comfort, fun and inspiration in their own ways

- a stable job and income, and getting a promotion in the middle of a pandemic (there's an infinite number of things to be dissatisfied about so let's just look at the good things)

- providence for my future, having options i never thought i would have, and an opportunity to bless others

but i will end on a sad note because my final week before this quarantine i was in Kaison and i nearly cried because they started putting out Christmas deco for sale and its OCTOBER and theres ZERO mood and we cant celebrate with anyone for anything and CNY is soon and i still cant go to Korea or Sibu or wherever omg