distractions.

sigh. ever since trials ended, i've not studied at alll.....

i always thought by around 50 days till spm, i'd be studying hardcore. like bring a book everywhere i go kinda thing. then the 50th day mark passed, in the midst of the jps paper, i thought, wtv, 30 days only i will start lah.

tmr is 31 days.

actually, studying should be simple. just pick up the book.

we can't do it because we have low attention spans. and lots of distractions.

we're students right? our purpose for our studying years is to study. i mean, you balance all that with having fun, and all that stuff.

so i get very discouraged when i realize that, some people actually don't study much, and despite thinking SPM is very important, it really actually isn't, and they think they care, but they don't.

the average student isn't born stupid. you study, and you improve. 

your grades show how hardworking you are, not how smart you are. and you can't evaluate intelligence based on malaysian-government-set exam.

demotivated? what an excuse.

well.

i am now, what do you call it, lazy. yeah. i sit down to study and my brain vomits inside.

dinosaurs:

1. COMPUTER :D

hey, orang zaman lepas spent their time climbing trees and slingshooting birds, we spend our time here.

the internet babeh, is the best thing ever. you spend hours on this thing, and when you finally get up to pee, you see the clock and go omg, but then you pee, drink water, and come back and do the same thing.

i'm trying a new diet. go online on alternate days only. it's kind of working. but sometimes i have to run past my computer just in case i 'accidentally' turn it on.

2. phone :)

yes. sometimes i really hate my htc. it is stupid. but besides having a whacked out system, it does have wifi, and opera mini or internet explorer. so i can go online :) and i have basic games like solitaire and bejeweled that never fails to entertain me. quite addictive too. imagine if i had a better phone. with lots of apps. i'd never study.

my dad's phone has unblock me. it's fun. i know sometimes you all think it's boring, but the only thing i can say back to you is, it's for smart people.

and android just recently released the full version of angry birds :) finger numbing, mind blowing.

3. football :D

hmm. how to give up football for studying. weekday games are in the crazy early mornings, so less sleep at night = more sleep in the afternoon = less time to study?

weekend games are okay...but if they are earlier in the night, it takes away two hours of studying.

and this is every week. what's worse is that i'm drawn to replays, highlights and reviews. and on the internet. my bookmarks toolbar has 5 football related sites.

4. sleep

i never had a biological clock. i only wake up when i have to. i never voluntarily wake up. i don't know how or why people get up at 8 on a holiday... i only wake up early to eat, study, pee or go out. nobody wakes up for fun. 

but i always sleep late. hmm. and in the afternoon, i sleep sometimes too. i guess. sleeping in school? zzzzzz.

5. stop asking me to go out :(

i'm also broke.

i know you all think haiya, one day few hours only ma, but then keep adding em up okay, and that is a lot. hiking!

all in all, it is basically procrastination.

sigh. just one more month.

my room is disgusting.